Part of the joy of living with my fibro monster is that he likes to make my wheels spin before I go to bed. I can relax with a cup of chamomile tea, start to yawn and imagine myself falling into a deep, refreshing sleep. Then, as soon as my head hits the pillows the idea fairy, in collusion with the fibro monster, I’m sure, visits and my brain begins to overflow with ideas. How to turn it off?
I’ve tried telling my brain to hold onto those ideas for when I wake up, but often times so many of them wander away in my sleep. Sometimes the ideas come back hours later, and I can capture them on paper, or the to do list, but many times I just have to wait for them to come around again. And yet, lying there, letting my mind go a mile a minute, doesn’t do anything for my sleep.
As a fibromyalgia patient, I already have poor sleep quality, so anything I can do to help ease me into sleep and stop the insomnia that so often plagues people with this disease is a good thing.
I’ve found reiki helps.
I take a deep breath, focusing on the feel of air going past my nostrils and and into my body. I exhale, imagining all the negative and stagnant energy leaving me like black smoke from the nose of a cartoon bull. I focus on the feel of the breath, the energy, good stuff in, bad stuff out, until my mind stills.
And then I unleash my secret weapon in the war on insomnia–reiki!
This is the time when you want to focus. Keep concentrating on your breath. Giving your mind something on which to focus will keep it from retracing the worries and stressors of your day and what you want to do when you awaken. While your mind is focusing on your breath, you will gently call reiki energy. I like to think “reiki on” as I exhale and in that pause before my next inhalation, the reiki energy fills my body with its comforting presence. Generally it doesn’t take but a dozen more breaths and I’m asleep.
I find this holstic way of getting to sleep to be a gentle way to ease myself into sleep. Sometimes, if the mind is exceptionally stubborn, I will ask for spiritual guardians to “stand” at the four directions, one on each side, to take care of my worries and watch over the things I want to watch over as well as me. Giving my cares to them, then calling in reiki tends to do the trick even on the toughest nights.
It’s tough to give our cares over to someone, but in this case, when I so very much want to sleep, it’s also very liberating to say “you take care of it” while I drift into slumber. And when I wake up, I’m ready to move forward and oftentimes I find my cares may be returned to me, but so, too, are some answers.